I need assistance.

My uncle lately took his personal life. He believed he was a star seed and adopted alura cein religiously. He believed he was in love together with her. A distinct type of love, the next love that was mutual. We discovered a studying frrrom her on his laptop the place she stored saying she cherished him a lot. He left a number of notes that had been very complicated. Saying “do it, that is the final time to totally join with HS.”

He left a love letter to Alura saying that he could not wait until they may lastly be collectively. I imagine he killed himself to Be together with her or not less than to be guided by her within the non secular world. I attempted to contact her, and at first she blew me off, even blocked me. Then lastly she informed me that it wasn’t her that inspired him, that he was listening to a different instructor that mentioned if he died proper now he may acquire tremendous powers and grow to be his increased self. However she would not say who, and informed me she doesnt condone suicide but evrry word we discovered mentiined her and the way he was going to do it to be together with her. Which makes me really feel like there’s extra to the story she’s not telling me.

I am so confused as to why he did it. I am questioning if anybody is aware of if there may be any correlation to the time and day he killed himself. It was Sunday, The 21st of might. He talked about in his notes “at four:17 I’ll lastly do it and be together with her endlessly” Does anybody know something about Alura Cein? Or the opposite instructor that claims its alright to take your individual life? Please assist. I’ve searched all over the place and I simply cannot discover something. He claimed to be a starseed from ophuicus? Was there some type of planetary alignment? Was it actually her telling him to do it so that they could possibly be collectively? If anybody is aware of something that I am not getting, please assist.

My household is harm and questioning what occurred. When you want any extra particulars simply let me know as its laborious to clarify all of it cuz I am so confused by it.

I am not a agency believer in something actually however a number of individuals have insisted I am a “Crystal Baby.” What do you guys assume?

[me](https://imgur.com/gallery/jaHB8) I am together with the image as a result of if anybody has examine this phenomena, apparently we now have a really distinctive look and aura. However it’s additionally a fairly cute image of me so be happy to giggle at it 🙂

So this story is among the weirder moments from my childhood. My dad was a trainer at a wildlife analysis facility/faculty. I used to be solely 2 half of years previous and had simply began to speak however not a lot. My mother and father and my two brothers had been staying in an previous one room log cabin.

All of a sudden within the the nighttime, I wakened from a dream, jumped out of my bunk and ran outdoors on to the porch. My mother and father knew I used to be an enormous spaz in order that they had been afraid I had seen a bear or bison within the night time and tried to chase it. After they ran outdoors after me I used to be simply standing there crying and staring on the sky. I circled and began speaking, however It was essentially the most articulate and detailed language that they had ever heard from a toddler, and positively far more than my mother and father had ever heard me discuss. The way in which I keep in mind it, I used to be in a lot misery that I had simply forgotten to be quiet, like I already knew excellent English and for some purpose I had been hiding it. I used to be crying about my mother dying after which my mother picked me up from behind and was actually freaked out, she was asking the place I discovered to speak and I pointed up. I defined to her that my mother, my different mother had taught me and he or she had died a very long time in the past. That I noticed her and I wanted to search out her. To return to my true residence. I solely keep in mind one factor from the dream: it was daytime and I noticed a girl’s face disappearing into the clouds.

I had numerous unusual déjà vu and Mandela impact moments like citing individuals my household did not keep in mind or locations we had by no means been, a few of which straight up did not exist. However all of that I suppose might simply be an lively creativeness. What actually will get individuals going is the image above. One of many few I’ve of my early childhood. My household would make enjoyable of me for pondering (as early as 3yo) very meta cognitively and even explaining buddhist thought ideas concerning the recycling of power and the which means of consciousness. I typically introduced it up at meals and would discuss concerning the life power of the issues we had been consuming. Once I drew I would not draw common issues, I might scribble over the entire web page in numerous colours and I known as the colours my emotions. I began to note that individuals had been uncomfortable round me, particularly after I seemed of their eyes. Once I seemed up generally the room would go quiet like everybody was ready to listen to me converse. Individuals would both look away sharply or crane to get a greater have a look at my eyes in the event that they thought I could not see them. In actual fact I developed an excessive concern of constructing eye contact with strangers as a result of it appeared like they bought trapped in my stare and I might watch the panic actually spreading throughout their face like they suspected I knew what they had been pondering. Finally I grew out of my weirdness and began making associates however I nonetheless discover issues like individuals trailing off in dialog and that uneasy seem like they’re on the lookout for an escape. However apart from that I used to be very social and pleasant in my teenage years earlier than I had a bout of melancholy. I had a repute amongst my associates for saying little issues that nearly made them assume I used to be psychic. I used to be additionally very empathetic and after I bought drunk everybody knew the social gathering was going to be wild. I may be so distant and introspective that individuals would neglect I used to be within the room. This occurred lots after I first struggled with melancholy and derealization. Then after I went to school and made new associates lots of people would inform me that, after I talked to them, it felt like I used to be studying their thoughts.

Vivid desires. A metropolis in my thoughts.

Just a few fast factors to make. To preface, I hadn’t heard the time period Starseed till yesterday when a pal’s psychic known as my ass out lengthy distance — with out even assembly me. I learn some articles on-line; just a few virtually introduced me to tears merely from their surprising accuracy to how I’ve at all times seen issues. I’ve at all times had fascinatingly vivid dreams– moreso now and over the previous few years than early childhood. I might say about 75-80% of the desires I bear in mind all happen in the identical world. A number of visible consistency, a contemporary metropolis / assortment of cities joined by a excessive velocity prepare system. It at all times amazes me once I discover myself there as a result of typically it feels simply as actual actual as my waking life.

Do we actually assume that we’re from one other planet / star system? I at all times believed that we’re all right here to have enjoyable and once we die we reemerge into our non bodily state and simply kinda do it once more. This positively provides layers to issues….

Anyway, a pleasure to be right here. Thanks for having me!